Yesterday, I made a commitment to myself and said it out loud to make myself accountable. I vowed to put more energy into finding my way back to joy and power.
These are my first two thoughts:
While I am uncertain about many things, I do know that I would like to find someone to share my life with. For so long, I wasn’t sure that was available to me. I’ve since learned that I’m actually pretty good at being a significant other. It is just the meeting people part that it is struggle. I need to make a commitment to finding and trying things that expose me to more new people. This is a big and scary thing to commit to, since I usually make decisions based on avoiding new people.
I was keeping a gratitude journal, but it deteriorated into a blurb of thoughts about the day. I think I’m going to try sharing quick notes about moments and experiences that bring me joy. This might help me keep my attention on these things.